it is almost six months that i am living as a single lady! my last relationship took 10 months ! and i really love my partner in that love story! it is so hard for me to forget all what happened between us! it's a very complicated situation between me, him and his girl! i do anything and sacrifice very important part of my life just to prove that i am serious to my love for him! but suddenly he was looking for some sweetness that he said he can't feel with me, so he found a girl (his classmate) that can satisfy his needs for the said sweetness! i don't know if he is just blind for not seeing that i am doing my best to give him my love and i have changed my personality as a freak into a sweetie girl just to stay him with me, or maybe it's over for the two of us to continue our relationship because both of us are feeling cold to each other! so maybe one of that is the reason why he left me and decided to go away and stay with his girl whom he can get what we want!
when i observed that he is happier with that girl, i decided to do the first move to break up with him, but i become weak and he is the one who did!at first, i did not feel any hard feeling because i prepared myself for that scene! but for the past days, i realized that i can't live my life without him! since he said that it's over, there are no times that i am crying in my room! i am so depressed! but with the help of my friends, i realized that my world will not stop because i lose him! it is just the reality that i should accept! so because of that realization i started to forget him and moved on even though it's really hard! i become angry to him for knowing that after 10 days since we are broken, he and his girl are committed to each other! isn't it that there's a rule that it should be 3 months before starting a new??? so i feel that he doesn't love me at all! i'm just wasting my time for loving him! it gives me strength to be angry with him! and because of that anger i promised to myself and my friends that i will stay single and not mind anything about love beacause it is just a waste of time! instead, i will focus on my studies! many weeks had pass and there are times that he is texting me and asking me if i'm alright and i think he wants to be updated about the happenings in my life! it's very confusing! i treat him good and act that there's nothing happened! but as days passed, i can't stay treating him as my close friend 'coz it really hurts! but my bestprend let me realized that i should give him a SECOND CHANCE! so, i lend it to him! now, we are friendz! close friendz!
one day, he texted me and said that he realize that HE WILL NEVER FALL IN LOVE WITH OTHER GURL THE WAY HE FALL IN LOVE WITH ME! i don't know what to reply and to feel. i can't let myself believe to his statement! i have no choice but to continue our conversation! it took until midnight! i feel so happy! bcoz i know that when i let him go, it's my own decision! and its nice to know that he regret letting me out of his heart! it feels that i am D WINNER!
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